This is what i used to say to myself, it's that idea in your head that you think you have it all, but at the end of the day, it really means nothing. You can love a person and be grateful for him and it's never the same backwards. You think something it's okay and it's working and the next day you realize that you were actually a dumbass because it wasn't . You think that something could work if you make it that way, and then when you put effort in it, it still doesn't work.
You give everything to someone who gives you nothing, you make someone your priority, but nobody thinks ur important to be a priority.
Maybe all my life i will have this problem, maybe i will never change, maybe i will always find something good and believe in it, and crave for it when i see it... Maybe i will always forgive crap that destroys me because i belive there's something greater beyond that, but maybe i will never be forgiven for my mistakes. Maybe i will allways appreciate the good all times at the end of the bads, but some are relying on the bad part only.
God doesn't give what you can't handle. The situation it's like a flower..you give beauty and great smells, then you die. Then you're reborned to do the same, then you die. And so on, until you never get to be reborned. And you live behind just beauty and great smells.
You have to do beautifull things, it's not important, not at all, for nobody, but it's important you'll do them.
